On Monday, it will be one month since I started weight watchers. I've lost 7 lbs. in 3 weeks and I'll weigh in tomorrow morning. It was Matt's birthday on Friday so we went out to celebrate. I had some delicious cheese! I haven't really been eating cheese so this was a very big deal. I'm not expecting a great loss this week, but I would like to have not gained.
I also ran 4 miles last week. For me, this is huge! I'm so proud of myself for making out there twice and going for a real run. I enjoyed it too, another first for me. The pond where I live is so beautiful and the neighborhood is full of interesting houses and yards, lots of people to watch. I downloaded some new songs for my ipod as a treat to myself. It was so peaceful and I think I felt my first "runner's high." I wasn't thinking how much I hated it, or how it was hard to breathe, I just listened to my music and jogged along. I think moving my body at a pace that's comfortable really made all the difference. I wasn't trying to keep up with anyone or thinking about how many calories I wanted to burn, I just ran. My one goal was not to stop until I made the loop twice. If I felt myself getting tired, I jogged slower. When a new song came on, it made me speed up. I loved it! I bought some new running clothes last week and I'm hoping to make this a regular event.
I'm most proud of my attitude with these changes. I'm not trying to meet lofty goals or be perfect all the time. If I'm jogging, at least I'm out there doing it, if I'm eating cheese, at least I know its a treat for eating healthy all week. I feel a clarity within myself that I'm not sure I've ever experienced. I'm letting go of the need for perfection, or looking at this as a competition. I'm not comparing myself to other people or to how I used to look. I'm getting healthy and it feels great. For the first time, I'm excited about being successful in making a change for me. It's amazing how good it feels to be kind to myself.
