Recently I've been writing letters in my head. I'm wondering if this is normal, if this is something that others do. It's becoming so frequent that I can't stop drafting letters. Then I thought---that would be a neat way to tell a story. Maybe since I'm pretending to be a writer in my head all of the time, I can take my imaginary correspondence to more permanent product. Here is a list of persons/organizations to whom I've drafted letters in my head:
1. Superintendent of my school district--regarding the unjust parking situation at my school and my lack of a computer and printer--3rd year in a row.
2. Translator Man--I hold you personally responsible for much of the events that transpired in my professional life this fall. You are a meddler. My letters to you are never nice, but they are always so eloquent that the powers-at-be have no choice but to terminate your employment. Forever.
3. A woman at work--sometimes I feel glad to know that she exists. It sounds a bit stalker-esque, I know, but she is light to me. Always positive, always literally glowing with joy or reason in madness. I don't even speak with her often. But I write her letters appreciating her positivity.
4. G--we are coming to the end of our journey together. I write a lot of letters to you. You are my inspiration, you hold a big piece of my heart, it breaks a bit with each day that brings us closer to our separation. I would teach you forever if you'd have me.
5. Mom--I write letters to the mom that I knew as a child. The one whistling as she did housework, the one "resting her eyes" on the steps of deck she waited for our school bus, the one who surprised us with cinnamon rolls on cold winter mornings. Mom--to you now. To the part of you I feel is lost, the part of you I'm becoming an adult friend to, and the part of you that I feel determined to bring peace.
6. Brother. What happened to us? And this letter goes on and on...
7. Matt. To whom I dedicate all my love letters.
8. T and J at work--I write you cards, specifically. Thank you cards, in my head, every night before I go to sleep. Maybe its my way of thanking the universe for you both and all you've brought to my life recently.
9. Z. I know you're sad. I know your life is hard. I want to help you. I love you.
10. To all the little souls I'm surrounded by each day: I love you. Thank you for giving me more love than I ever thought possible. Thank you for making this so much more than a job. You break my heart, you build me up, you make me laugh, and you show me how resilient is the human spirit.
Perhaps this is why I never sleep through the night.
